Aubade by Philip Larkin

By any measure Philip Larkin (1922-1985) was one of the best poets writing in English in the 20th century. But his misogynistic, xenophobic letters published after his death have damaged his reputation. I take the unfashionable view that the art and the artist are separate, and I don’t have a problem with reading great poems written by horrible people. I’ve read most of Larkin’s poems many times, and he has the gift that Auden has of creating lines that are not only memorable but capture the spirit of the age. Yesterday I was walking with a friend who told me he wakes at 4 every morning and can’t get back to sleep, which brought this poem to mind, This morning another friend takes me to task for “exulting in death,” but I don’t feel about death the way that Larkin does in this poem. Indeed, I think, paradoxically, that if humanity cannot soon find a better relationship with death it will destroy itself through mass death.

I work all day, and get half-drunk at night.
Waking at four to soundless dark, I stare.
In time the curtain-edges will grow light.
Till then I see what’s really always there:
Unresting death, a whole day nearer now,
Making all thought impossible but how
And where and when I shall myself die.
Arid interrogation: yet the dread
Of dying, and being dead,
Flashes afresh to hold and horrify.
The mind blanks at the glare. Not in remorse
– The good not done, the love not given, time
Torn off unused – nor wretchedly because
An only life can take so long to climb
Clear of its wrong beginnings, and may never;
But at the total emptiness for ever,
The sure extinction that we travel to
And shall be lost in always. Not to be here,
Not to be anywhere,
And soon; nothing more terrible, nothing more true.

This is a special way of being afraid
No trick dispels. Religion used to try,
That vast, moth-eaten musical brocade
Created to pretend we never die,
And specious stuff that says No rational being
Can fear a thing it will not feel, not seeing
That this is what we fear – no sight, no sound,
No touch or taste or smell, nothing to think with,
Nothing to love or link with,
The anasthetic from which none come round.

And so it stays just on the edge of vision,
A small, unfocused blur, a standing chill
That slows each impulse down to indecision.
Most things may never happen: this one will,
And realisation of it rages out
In furnace-fear when we are caught without
People or drink. Courage is no good:
It means not scaring others. Being brave
Lets no one off the grave.
Death is no different whined at than withstood.

Slowly light strengthens, and the room takes shape.
It stands plain as a wardrobe, what we know,
Have always known, know that we can’t escape,
Yet can’t accept. One side will have to go.
Meanwhile telephones crouch, getting ready to ring
In locked-up offices, and all the uncaring
Intricate rented world begins to rouse.
The sky is white as clay, with no sun.
Work has to be done.
Postmen like doctors go from house to house.

2 responses to “Aubade by Philip Larkin”

  1. I like your ability to separate, personality from creativity, I remember a big debate regarding Wagner who was anti-semitic.

    on the other hand, you are always swimming against the current to let people accept the reality of death, though some consider it a disease

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  2. […] much for memory: I’ve just discovered that I’ve posted this Larkin poem once already-in June. https://acairnofpoems.com/2024/06/13/aubade-by-philip-larkin/ But, hey, it’s such a great poem that I’ll post it again—with some different words at the […]

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